Laying quietly in my personal palace and sensing all my memories walking from room to room, -slowly , -joyfully, -pained,–timed…
I laugh through tears….
Sitting up in my garden memorizing every lyric ever heard from the lips all around me.
Feeling the tense arousal that comes from those eyes and stares
Breathing in your personal aroma of masculinity
Taking in slowly every phase of your life through my own intertwining it with the threads of mentality.
Sunrays breaking through the eclipse of the full moon, melodies of your soft voice mimic through the cool breeze that brushes against my warm skin.
While the pool of icy tears that float upon the blades of green.

Falling leaves-, from amber-, crashing on top our bodies -exposing eyes of youth compared to mine of terra-cotta that can’t compare.
Ivory tower blocking out the intensity of my heart and sun.
Your cooling touch soothing my own lust that radiates from my burning flesh.

Feeling the risk through the dangers of our secret love. The quivering erotic feel of us facing fear of a simple touch to our lips.
Perceiving the touch, caress, tease, grip in ecstasy. Smoothing the hair from my face, opening my mouth, quietening me.
Us quivering through exotic temples of unity and silence as we listen to our pounding breaths as we slowly
-take in
-breath after
-breath
-And explode
-heaven
Paradise
Fear
Adrenaline rushing through all my senses and finally releasing
Soothing like heavenly waters
Flowing from vein to vein
Bodies sweating, me bathing in his smell, his rough touch, his masculine violence leaving me sore
Eyes aware of movement
Skin irritated, bruised, satisfied.
Marooned to live life in its most passionate of moments
Only knowing that such sensations are to come once
Thus I wake with my personal guilty pleasure.
Memorized
Kept in secret
Knowing only
That we both dreamt it.
And forever will.

arms cradling me tightly
skin smooth and sensitive
The sensation still running over my head and body
Broken record
Repeating such volume
Wanting for this to never fix
For this to continue its intensity
Its destruction
The feeling breaking out
Tearing through skin
Through my minds flesh
Eyes watering
Drowning
Overflowing
Breathless…

You wake with confusion
Obscured mentality
Feeling emotionally upset
Confused about your own security
The true endorsement
Of your own love fighting that which controls your own conception of it
Hands sweating, body aching
Heart pounding
Deciding what is next to come
Realizing that the clock’s been murmuring obnoxiously in the background
He stands and fashions for school


In the ice of February
My face numb and cold
The scent of the great February air
walking through the lit street lights spacing out to random thoughts

In the freezing of winter
Slamming the door, shutting the warmth of car heater
And feeling the icy breath of winter burn against my cheek


I glide through from them bottom of the hill to the top
Feeling the wind forcing me back
Setting into the course of destiny

I’m just heading to my destination
Mind bothering my senses
Reminding of last nights hypnotizing…
An unreal dream
Mind clashing through thought

Mind relieving smoothing out the rough edges my conscience
The air relieving my stress my thoughts
Him

I cross the bridge looking down focusing on my steps
Sensing a warmth at the end
I glance up

My body over heating
My hands sweating my mind rushing to random conclusions
Foot steps breaking my concentration
Cooling me down

I see him
My mind rushing back to last nights dreams
The same adrenaline accelerating
The exact sense of wanting
body boiling
hands stiffness warming away
My own mind and body asking for more
Of him

I’ve taken that simple glimpse of his eyes
That’s all it takes for me to given in
But no I shall fight it
Not giving in to temptation
Ignoring my emotions from my own conscience
Holding back burning tears

I, too scared to say such a simple word
One that connects all threads together
A sheer greeting
Common to all folk

Forcing myself to breath to walk away
To never get hurt
Understanding
Against every odd
I give up and walk ahead
Pass him turning to only receive his eyes
Deep, ebony, cryptic eyes that hide all sense of emotion
Frightened I look away

He passes me and looks obscurely into my eyes
His eyes so beautiful so full of empathy
They carry such characteristic such
Personality
Drawing me in
Akin it’s warm
Understanding impression
He looks away pulling from me
That aluminating safety
The illusion tearing away
Leaving me cold
Step by step
Breath by breath
I am left alone

I can’t believe that he’s gone
He’s on the other side
I turn back my glance

I look back to see him
slowly walk away from me

They met eye to eye
Sharing the moment with unity
A moment that takes only a second
But shares the everlasting moment of a memory
A memory that they both would share
For eternity…
Only that they both
Would not know….
Of how true their connection really is…

So time stopped.